<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

Today,
someone tell wrote to me this :

Well I'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over,
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over.

You can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out...


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Well, i guess..
if u look it in this way,
No one understand what the writer wants..
But hey..
i know what he wants..
Well.. answer given to him...
Haha.. some how..
i still cant believe..
i answer him..
what i answer...
But part of me..
Somehow...
glad i did...
What i did...
Some how i am glad..

KEPALE KU SAKIT !!!!

Lately,
There was alot in mind..
I may seen Happy, and cheerful outside...
But Inside...
Can Anyone See???

No...
U knoe why..
Coz no one really care...
There is a few...
But the friends tat Cares...
Out there some where...
BZ...

I guess,
This is life huh...
Busy.. everyone have their own life...
ANd this is mine...
DEspite the sorrow inside...
I smile...
I laugh..
Hiding all the pain and worries...

WHen will this end??
WHen can i jus break down...
Break down to show how it felt like inside....
The feeling of wanting to just shout out...
The feeling of wanting to break down and cry.....

Yet i can't...
Can't...

Just.... Can't.......

Hey ppl!!!!

Okie la, have to admit,
its been a long time since the last blog entry i put in..
OKie, This pics above.. hAHA..
IS actually glow sticks..
was at the beach on the 15..
tat nite i played with glow sticks..
cute huh...haha...
I went to the beach with my sis,
East coast park...
Haha.. n felt aft riding bicycle too.. haha...
It was with my sis future husband family..
they invited me since i knoe them alreay.. haha
But it was fun...
See how happy everyone is...
ANd my sis..
In her eyes, i see that she really is happy...
I am happy for her..
Happy tat she found the love of her life...
** i will put in more pics aiight?? ***

==-- DeviLaid --==

Well,
Its late..
Dated 3 dec 07 today..
1.43 am..
And yet.. i am still here..
Can't sleep jus yet..
A lot been happening lately..

Like losing an old classmate..
Died cause he had an accident..
he was still surviving in the hosp..
then the next thing i knew..
an sms came up..
he died...
Damn... i shld have gone and visited him..
Stupid rite..
" Ryan.. my dear friend.... We, those of ur friends.. ur classmates...
We will always miss u... we all love u aiite... May u rest in peace... "
On the day of his funeral i didnt get to go..
But on that day..
Gotten to know that my uncle sister in law...
ANother words... my aunty also have been buried...
SAd isn't it.. my family only gotten to know when she is already been burried...
This is the at of others...
Who dun appreciated my family.. and yet do tis to us...
U ppl could have been more nice and jus called us!!
but no...
stuborn shit.....
how could u ppl do this....
TO her.... she died.. and u never tell us...
IT was sad...
SHe was very nice...
very........
she cook well too..
she had cook for my 1st sis wedding too...
Was very nice of her rite...
very nice....
" i pray for the best... God loves u alot..."

In jus a week..
I lost two ppl in my life...
This is the truth of live isn't it...
The sad truth of life...
When u lose someone...
U jus have to face it...
Face it with strength..
Its difficult... but u must go on...
It the fact of life...
Ppl u love jus come and goes....
Its ok...
HE jus love them more...
Be strong everyone....
For this is jus....
THE TRUTH OF LIFE......

-=- Devilaid -=-

HAha..
Today.. i deleted MIRC from my lappy...
Its been stressful everywhere i go..
Wonder why seh...
Well i guess its time i quit all the chatting...
Time to go from a local chatter here an there..
to a normal.. sch gal...
Time to jus chill...

Anywae...
My lasted art work nearly completed...
i jus need to buy charcoal and touch up...
FInal touches will be made.. in another 2 weeks i guess...
ME taking my own sweet time to do tis art work...
a picture will be taken only wen it have been finish...
Art lovers.. do keep in touch wit me if u wanna see...
thanks u...

_=_ DeviLaid _=_
+- Living In Simplicity -+

Today,
i never go sch..
Not that i do not want to..
but i was sick..
Had flu from yesterday..
tot it would be gone by this mornin..
But no....
my head felt damn heavy..
And u know wat..
the pain was UNBEARABLE!!!!!!!!!

Slept nearly the whole day..
Anywae.. wake up..
bathe..
Force myself to eat..
then medicine..
Can't slep so here i am...

took Photos of me and lil bro..
just to cheer up abit..
even tho my head still hurts..


-=- DeviLaid -=-

U ppl wanna know wat !??
I think i am addicted to Hot choco and marshmellow..
eating marshmellow, and at the same time drink a sip of hot choco..
Ahhh heaven seh...
Feel the softness of the marshmellow mixing together with hot choco..
THe melting sensation...
THe heavenly taste...
Hmm....
Damn nice....

Sejak kebelakangan ini,
Waidah asik takle tido..
Entah kenape..
Da dua - tiga hari ni,
Waidah tido dalam 3 jam jek...
Penat rase nye..
Da tu,
Tambah dgn sakit kepale..
Nyut-nyut aje mlm2..
Dari stress sikit,
Boleh stress banyak..
Mcm nk aje hentak kepale kat tembok...
Haiz,
Nasib2...

--== DeviLaid ==--

To those that care,
i think,
there's one or two...

U people wonders,
what's wrong wit me?
Well,
To tell u ppl the truth,
I have no idea.....

Sorrie if...
i haven't been myself lately,
Sorrie if i made u guys worry..

Currently,
tell u the fact..
i feel...
Empty...
Lonely...
LOst...

THat's what's wrong,
i think..
i dun know why..
i really dun..

TO people who dun know me...
TO u guys,
my blog may be emo,
or what shit u ppl call me..
i dun care if u guys talk behind my back..
COz i know who i am...
I know where i stand...
LOw as i can stand..
is where i am..
But i dun care...
WHat ever u think..
Beyond this careless attitude.....
i suffer....
Beyond what u guys would ever feel..
Yet i Do not care.....

All i know..
is that rite now..
at tis moment..
All i feel..
Is emptiness...
Loneliness..
N lost...


----==== Devilaid ====----

Thousands Shining Stars in the sky..
Slowly disappear...
Leaving me searching..
in Darkness..

Hence, the Moonlight..
Now slowly darkening away...
Leaving Me Lost..
Without anywhere to go..

U use to Be light..
the Pull..
Leading Me out Of This Darkness...
But...
WHere are u NOw??

U use to be there..
When i am lost...
U Use to be my map..
Guiding me to where i should go...
But
NOw?? WHere are u??

So now......
Where am i??


--=- DeviLaid -=--

This two picS are edited by :
--== DeviLaid ==--

Lately,
Its been too lonely..
Too silent..
At times,
Neither a Ring,
Nor a Beep tone heard..
My hand phone seems dead..

i Kept my distant,
From these people..
it seems so scary..
Yet,
When asked Why..
Its so hard to explain..

In Silence,
Sorrows slowly engrave themselves
Giving More pain that ever..
Yet i remain silent..
Thou' i myself doubt i know why..
Why do i Wanna kill myself slowly this way?
why??
Why???

CUTe ISn't it !!!!! hahahakkzzzz...

What does silence means to u?
Does it means, " hate u, "
Or " i'm in Pain, "
Or " i need u? "
SO, WHat does it really means???

Nevertheless,
it seems s painful..
to just endure.
the slow killing..
from the silence..
that u gave...

Yet,
me too..
was in silence more than u..
What does it feel like to u??
Do u..
feel the pain that u gave me??
Do u??

Hey,

This is the same drawing in the previous entry, jus that its backgrd is in black and the drawings is in white.
I think its a better one rite?
Somehow, its much nicer to look at..
AM i rite?
Or is it jus to my eye??

To all that used to be close to me...
i jus want to say that i am sorri if i haven't been there, or
haven't been hanging out with u guys...
CUrrently i got alot of problems at home..
i am truely sorrie ok..
i talk to all of u soon...
Getting migrane again...
take care... bye

~`~devilwai~`~

Hie..
i editted the fish drawing with some design, jus to kill time and to kill boredom i had in class, i edited this using my laptop. In Classs!! hahakzz.. bad me... i jus play ard with the pics that i drawn and scaned into my laptop, and then jus duplicate it, and turn and twist them ard and gotten this...Would be better if i got Photoshop. HAhakzz. it would be much nicer and with more realistic piece of drawing...

The main purpose for this is actually to get new symbol for the horoscope pisces.. WEll, not to worry, its jus a first step. I'll keep drawing and editing till i get the finalize thing.. Jus keep updated aiighttt...


~`~ devilwai ~`~

Hey,
SO i am bored, in class, decided to upload some of the nonsense i drew..
<---- this side, its jus some border i drew up recently.. dun know whats its for.. i drew for the sake of killing time at home. since i got nothing to do. Ok then on this side------------------------------^
its just a a drawing of a rose, from the bottom view... Hope u guys can see it... COz at times, people jus du get what u are drawing. It irritates me at times....

~`~devilwai~`~

okie this is just some drawings i drew recently.....
TOpic...
fishes...
haha...

Hey all...

Its the start of the day in school...
Its so sleepy..
at the side, its two old drawings of mine..
So, wats it abt..
I did tis drawig when i was out..
in the mrt...
Well,
So i seen alot of people ard me..
not really lah, since it was late...
last train home..
So then its was a peaceful journey home...
a few people here and there but then all blank seats..
So then i was bored,
so i drew these two people,
not sure if they notice..

So,
wats with the faces rite..
Well, wen u drew something
or someone,
u look at it in ur point of view..
At times u see them much different..
At times u see the real them.
There is always something different

FOr these two drawing..

THe boy turn out to be much smily,
the real person is the same,
but the smile some what different when he smile at me,

THe lady,
see the eyes?
i did it like that coz she was wearing contacts..
SO i dun know how her eyes is..
she was a beautiful lady,
but abit action.. as in those high class bitch..
but i drew her in a way i tried to see her differently..
it turns out to be much more nicer and friendly..

u guys shld see the real drawings..
its much clearer..
but who cares...
So...
Wat u guys thinks abt my drawings??
Give me a comment aiight??
thanks,

Waidah

Hey..

ToO all who visiting my Bloggy, A warm welcome and thank u for even visiting.. though my bloggy is not famous, hey its where i share my tots and feelins abt stuff i wanna and feel like to..

Ok today, the upmost weird thingy happens.. hahakzz.. to all that knows me in person, should have known the fact that i hardly wear skirts.. hahakz, dun ask why, i just don't. For all who dun really knows me... lets me tell u more abt me.. I'm jus a simple gal, Which seldom wear skirt.. not just seldom, its like once in a blue moon hahakkzz..But today, i decided to wear skirt to skool.. Which is actually a shock to all who knowsa me abit more in depth. hahakzz Ok. To all who wonder why i wear skirt... Lets get one thingy straigth!! I DO NOT HAVE A DATE AFT SKOOL TODAY!! NO I DO NOT!! So pls stop asking abt it or saying that i have a date. I just feel like it. SO i wear. I wear what i feel comfortable with and what i feel like. Aiight?? I dun kne why though, i feel happy and cheerful today so i feel like wearing it. Its nt always feel cheery and all smily the whole day. hahahkzzz...

Ok. So all u can see the pic rite? anywae, it was taken when my family wen to the zoo, recently.. a month of less back. i think.. Anywae... Isn't it cute? Well, Wen i see it.. it makes me feel happy and at times sad too. I miss all the times Me and my two elders sister and of coz my darling lil bro. Miss all the times we go out as a family, together wen we were abit smaller, go everywhere together, and of coz the times we go holiday as a family.. hahakss.. best.. WEll now most bz with husband or finance. But i am happy that they are happy with their lovers.

Another thingy abt this pic is that it jus shows tat animals are like us too.. hahakzzz isn't it cute. hahakzz. So Wat u guys think abt it??? tell me in the comment session aiight

Nari, me and my family pergi ke Kota Tinggi..
Bestnye.. tak terkate..
ade mat hesem.. haha.. tak ingin ku..
Hatiku terpikat pade mat delivery pizza..
tapi kan ku tak perah jumpe die..
Dari gambar je..
But, bile bebual dgn die..
he seems.. so sweet and nice...
Hope he likes me too..

Anyway..
Airnye sejuk ampai ke tulang..
tapi..
Tiada kata yg dapat ku kata kan..
Untuk describe ketenangan ye..
Airnya yg sejuk, pemandagan lak best..
tenang sekali jiwa..
it feels so good..
Tapi bile kuar aje dari air tu..
SIaplah..
Mengigil..Sejuk...
Da tu, dgn ribut2 org-org ni..
Hilanglah ketenangan yg ku sangat hargai,
Hanya sebuah gambar aje lah dapat ku kenang..
Saat-saat tenteram di sane..
This picture is nice rite.. love it alot..
hope u guys love it too..
other pics taken from Kota Tinggi will be up soon.

Thanks to all that layan my karut nari..
but hey i love tis pic..
PICTURE PREFECT!!!

Sejak kebelakangan ni..
Hidupku menjadi semakin sunyi..
entah mangapa,
Kadang-kadang itu,
ku rasa seperti dunia ini,
Membenci diriku ini..
Adakala pula,
Ku rasa semua nye tidak menentu,
Semuanye seperti huru-hara..
entah mengapa,
Ku rasa kehilangan..
Munkin ku tahu kenapa..
munkin kerana sejak kebelakangan ini,
Ada daripade kawanku, terlalu sibuk..
Ada pula dari org-org yg ku harapkan kasih syg,
Menipu ku..
Penipuan yg mengbangkitkan memori..
Memori yg sudah lama ku kunci ke tepi..
Munkin ku terlalu fikirkan kisah lame..
Ataupun ku Tak dapat menmaafkan mereka..
mereka yg sudah dekat di hati,
Tapi rupanye PEnipu besar..
Ada pula antara mereka,
Tidak menerima aku untuk aku,
Diri ku..
Apakah Buruk diriku ini??
Apakah silap diri ini??

Namun,
Hidup ini harus ku lalui..
Sudah tiba Masa nya ku pergi..
Pergi jauh dari org-org itu,
Dan pergi Mencari teman yg Baru,
seseorg yg ikhlas nye menerima aku..
Menerima aku sebagai aku..
Siapakah yg Dapat menerima,
aku sebagai aku..
SIapa?????

Origally made by = di reka original oleh :
devilgal wai aka waidah

Well,

hi again. So far things are going. The thing is that i still have problem sleeping. Weird isn't it. sometimes, it makes me stress. COz no matter wat time i sleep, i have to wake up early. So tiring... i went to the zoo with my family today.. haha.. cool ah.. aft years..

Hey ya all..

Hey ya all..