<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

Today... when i woke up.. i was lazy.. mum n dad had sent my lil bro to religious class then they went jb for a while.. then 2nd sis when to attend a wedding..1st sis n bro in law went out.. let me.. i had to go werk at 4pm.. so i was left alone.. did not feel like getting up so i ended up reading a book..till i realise tat i shld be going to werk..i was actually getting late.. tell the truth.. i am sick n tired of the job, and the fact that the pay suckz and to think my fares are really expensive.. damn it.. so i went out rushing... then mum called.. ask me if i got money... i was at the bus stop.. asked me to go back up n so i did.. still rushing.. then she waited at the lift at the 10th floor.. wit $5..am so thankful for tat.. the rush back to the bus stop.. waited for the bus again.. so then when i was in my 2nd bus..i was reading and listenin to music.. by this time my head is really getting painful.. i had it frm mornin but the pain was nt this painful.. then i stop reading.. and tried to get some Zzzz.. sleep.. then when i open my eyes.. i saw this lady giving bananas to 2 monkeys..haha the area was jus forest.. so i guess there will be wild monkeys ard.. cute... haha...Then when at werk.. gotten down frm the bus.. i felt like puking.. but cant since i havent really eaten.. so then i change to my werk uniform, bought mineral water and snikers..chocolate.. haha.. then.. normal la at werk.. then suddely this cute guy came in.. he is malay but fairer than me.. damn he is so cute.. came to the counter with some shaver.. asking me is there is still those disposable ones.. Since i was so distracted by the way he talk (so the nice..) and how cute he is... i accidentally said no.. oppsss, i am so sorrie... but damn he is cute...hahaha...Anywae.. i still got the headache till now.. and i am already home.. damn it rite... i guess i been thinking too much.. that is why, i cant keep doing this... my migraine have already been getting worse.. and the fact i dun have anymore of my medicine... do u know migraine can be fatal.. damn... hope i dun die soon.. well its in HIS hands.. jus hope its not soon coz i still have a duty to my mum and lil bro.. until he is old enuf, and got stable job.. i wont walk away frm my duty... and especially not when i get my mum to stop werking.. and let her live in peace, i wont walk away frm my duty... life is hard... but we still have to face it...

Well, 5th march, I turned a year older now.. today... Tell u the truth.. it makes no difference to me.. I just turned a year older.. Nothing else change.. But I am thankful that I am able to stand among others, and the ppl I love, and to be able to see them happy leading their life they way the think best... Well... it feels a bit lonely... But I guess it just the same as any other day.. that's why it feels a bit lonely. Well I am used to it.. so I be okie...

Didn't get sleep aft I came back from work the day b4.. Came back a bit late and got lock outside.. HaHa... But I already told mum I coming home a bit late. A bit became more than a lil a bit as saw my old friend at sembawang.. Asked me to follow go eat, since its been a while since we talk and hang out, and to think it was my Bdae..And since I told mum I be coming home a bit late.. I went along.. Eat at sembawang.. so then, we hail a cab..to sent me home first.. so sweet..

Then 5th march..Well, morning, since I can't sleep..I got up from bed.. to the living room.. talk and talk and then... then followed mum go pay bills..buy food for the sisters. Then got home, 1st sis gave me a watch..Thnx.. Then I cook.. like normal la kan.. Then.. aft everything.. mum wen and sleep. and I rested at my room.. Then it gets all bored till I fall asleep...finally..HaHa.. I was waiting to get sleep.. woke up and found a box in my cupboard.. I got this white skirt wit black roses on it.. HaHa from 2nd sis la ni.. Thnx...

Tho I feel bit lonely today, Thnx for the ppl that had wish me happy Bdae thru sms or net or msn.. Thnx u guys...But.. Thnx.. seriously to all.. AHHhhh da tue!! hahakkzzz.. But thanks to all okie.. even if its for just remembering.. thnx alot...love u ppl k..muack muackss..

Waidah

Well, Have U actually ever wonder.. Why these ppl comes and goes as they please.. Weird isn't it.. They come, get to know U, promise to be Ur friend and all that..make u trust them and all.. But then Stab u in the back or just.. leave u.. Disappear just like that.. Weird isn't it.. Ppl... Lies..

At times I wonder why they even bother to be Ur friends when they actually would leave u.. or disappear just like that sooner or later.. And to top it all off.. they actually promise u.. No wonder they say," Promises are meant to be broken." Haizzz...

Then.. It would lead u to this.. Have u ever wonder why.. Why u even believe these ppl?? Have u ever wonder why no matter how many countless number of times ur friends played u out, or promise some things or even the countless number of times u made a friend and they leave u with unkept promises.. u still make new friends and believe them. even when in the end... u know they aren't really gonna kept being there or keep their promise..Well, I wonder why..

Well, I guess its ok to wonder why at times.. Well, I guess we just want someone to be there for us..Especially when we really in need of someone to turn to.. But its just weird how someone could just be there then the next min, they disappear from ur life, acting like hey never ever existed in ur life before.. Don't they feel the guilt? Well, i guess I will keep wonder why.. Till maybe one day, someone give an answer to it.. But I guess, everyone would answer differently to these question..

But if anyone of u, who reading this, might wanna let out some suggestion or opinion to these question or tots of mine.. pls fell free to do so aite.. I would love to read some views of others...