<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

Each person is made in a different way rite.. And each person have their own of everything, the way they do stuff, dressing, wat they like and the way they think, the way they think about the good, and the bad.. each person is very different.. but most have a common one like.. we shldn't do this n tat.. but some ppl, i jus dun get it.. Why some ppl do stuff that is at times.. u know u shldn't... At times i think some of these ppl are sickenin..

Why i say these?? For example.. things that even some bad boys or gals do not play around with.. DEATH... but u know wat..Some ppl are jus sickening.. like i said.. sickenin.. There was this story.. a gal, was said to lost her bf who died in brunei.... told by the family.. then a week after crying and crying and the fact that she cant give her last respect to the body.. she was damn sad.... she received a call.. u.. u... the voice call.. as she jus woke up.. she said yes.. so then the voice said.. u remembered who i am or not?? To her shock, it was him.. his dead b4.. Well so called to be dead.. then after dead he said some stupid reason like.. they mistaken someone who look like him to be dead.. the thing is.. mistaken identity happens seldom in hospital.. it cld happen if both do not have an identity card with them.. and something like tat.. then the bf said again.. cld u help me.. i wanna go back to sg.. but i dun have enuf money for the flight.. i have werked abit to collet some. but the flight is later.. and i still lack or $50.. the she said.. go find help.. then he said.. u tranfers some money to me la.. u know my acct no rite.. then she think back.. he is in brunei.. how to acess POSB back acct there?? no such thing.. Then she think again.. he said all his stuff the family took back.. then why he have his POSB accnt card?? No logic!! But part of her wanted to help..  but too bad she dun have money.. thank god.. I think god pity her for always helping him.. Then she said she dun have money.. then he was like.. help la help la.. borrow from anyone.. or sell ur hp...she said.. no i cqaqnt ddo that.. i'm sorrie.. Then after that.. she was bz wit other stuff. so then he never call again. as he said the no wasn't his.. some brunei aunty.. but the number is sg number.. no logic again!! Then after that she was like crusing.. what the fuck was he trying to do!!!

Yeah like i said.. sickening ppl..1st he made her go thru all his  problem.. she help him all the time.. at the last straw.. u played with death!!! U mother fucking chain saw son of a bastered guy!!!!!!! sorrie for the vulgar..This is wat i said that some ppl.. i jus cant seem to understand what they are doing.. This is am example of some weird nonsense that some ppl do..And  the fact that at times they do this stuff to ppl that actually did care abt them.. stupid ppl..then end up.. u totally lose their trust.. ont only tat i lost the person too.. haha.. suit the person rite.. sooner or later then would feel their lost of the person that were there for that stupid nonsense person.. Seriously.. i do notunderstand these ppl.. wonder why they do stpid stuff. Its not liike u gain anything good from doing all these nonsense stuff... all u could get back is hated by the other person.. and the lost of someone..But seriously.. who would understand these ppl..... would u??

AaaaarrrrrggggggHHH... So the tired... Have to wake up early everyday. Sometimes it feels so tired... ANd feeling the aches on my back the minute i open up my eyes.. Ouch.. i am in class and i still can feel my back aches.. And the worse is the pain i feel waist area.. Unbearable... Sit for sometime and i feel the pain.. Stand for too long i feel the pain too.. Damn... And the worse for today is that i having headache.. Getting migraine again. PLs not now.. Not so soon... i Wanna Get another A grade for Ai Tee's lesson... haha.. she is a great faci.. Even ask me just now how is my dad.. as i told her i been so tired and all..Like tellin her what i been thru in my life in my rj.. haha.. didnt mean to.. but she make me tell in a way..Well maybe its jus me.. Sometimes u jus need to let out to someone.. Ahhh... its like complains.. u need to complain to someone sooner or later. If u got bf/gf.. they will be the one u complain to every now and then.. if u close to ur friends, then u complain to them sometimes..While at times it not complains.. its ur feelings and depression u feel that u wanna let out.. They are just like complains...But its okie to let them out u know.. it reliefs the so call burdenor stressness u feel. Even though at most of the times, no one could help. but having someone that listens to all ur naggings, ur feelings, ur stress, could make u feel better.. At times it makes u feel that there are still someone who cares even at the darkest moments of ur life.. though... At times..Like me.. When at times.. there isn't anyon there.. and the only thing u got is urself and like wat.. teddy bear?? U just have to be strong.. Its hard but u have to be strong.. No matter wat, in this life, there are points of times in which u have to face everything by urself. having to do everything by urself isn't that bad. Sad, anger, stress, tiredness will all come all at once.. but u jus have too.. i guess everyone goes thru it some time. Look it in another way, its just a stteping stone to make u a stronger person. To make u prepare for watever cld happen to u in near future. U cldn't always depend on ppl to be there for u 24hrs a dae..other ppl have their stuff too.. while some.. wld jus leave u sooner or later.. its fate..

Ade org kate... kalau sakit tu, tande nye yg tibe masenye u rest.. Kalau kite sakit tande nye da mase nye kite rest.. then kalau org tu mati?? tande nye ape lak?? Kalau org mati, tande nye, mase dier da sampai...

Lepas tu ade org kate... bile org da mati kite akan dgr... " sudah lah, da mase dier pergi.. Tuhan sygkan die lebih..." Kadang2 terfikir jugak.. ape, jahat nah ke aku... kalau tuhan tak amik nyawe aku dulu, die tak syg aku sgt la?? ape je... kan DIE tu adil.. Tak kan dier mcm kite2 ni.. org tu kate syg.. org tu kite syg cikit.. org lagi satu tu tk syg.. ape aje la.. Tapi.. da bagus tu org2 ni cube make u cheer up.. da bagus la tu...

Then ade org kate pulak.. " anak dier mesti jahat nanti besar.. ko tgk je la bapak dier nye peragai.." Ni part bedek... Example.. bapak aku.. ade a kisah2 nye.. tapi mak aku jagu takde ape2 pun.. satu2 masok jugak sch, dapat jugak grad.. akak aku da khawin pun sak.. takde pun masal anak uat peragai.. Kalau ade makcik2 cakap kat korang gini.. ko pergi kat dier kate.. " makcik.. nanti makcik nye anak pun same... tgk je la mak die ni.. mulut banyak busuk.. cuci dgn clorok pun tak hilang sak baunye cik..." Ni kalau die tak paham...aku tak tahu la kan...

Macam2 la org2 ni kate kan.. ade yg sakit hati, ade yg memang tak masuk akal, ade pulak tu cume cube try2 pujuk la conon.. haha.. Untuk sekarang, ni aje aku ade untuk session " Ade org kate " untuk sekarang.. Nanti aku free, aku sambung... ni pasal tgh nk let go stress nye session.. kalau megarut.. buat bodoh sudah la k... bye ppl!!

On Sat, i gotten a news.. One that makes me cry.. One that i never expected it to be.. Damn.. I feel so lost.. Wen i gotten the news, i wanted to cry.. but damn i can't.. COz mum and all would ask why.. and i knw i wont be able to explain. LAte that nite.. i cry.. while i wanna go and sleep.. i cry and cry.. Damn.. WHy does all this have to happen to me.. WHy... WHat have i done wrong to deserve all this.. I wish i knw.. The only thing i cld do is pray.. Pray to god to give me the strength to go thru all this... Pray to HIM that he give me patience to go thru all this.. Pray to HIM.. That's all i cld do..

Damn.. its getting more and more complicated huh... Well u guys knos wat.. i am like getting headache every now and then.. Well i guess it coz i think too much and the fact that i been stressing out in class.. AARRHHH.. i have Science everyday!! hahaa.. serve me rite for choosing abt medication.. no says its gonna be easy... ALmost everyone says u can't do it.. That u are not capable enough.. WEll, i'll show u ppl... WHo cares anywae.. not doing this for u ppl... Doing it for mum and myself..and of coz for my lil bro.. and all in the family..

Then yesterday i made someone angry.. well, i didnt mean it.. Its just at times when u not in the mood and all, then the person tried to cheer u up but end up u jus gets more stressed up, and in the end u get angry and say something stupid like.. u are the same like everyone.. and make the person angry..and aaaarrgggggg!!!!!! i really didnt mean it u knw..

DAmn.. me and my mouth.. Then i got a late nite call.. someone in the hospital.. damn.. too bad the person is not in singapore.. if not i wld rush there after sch.. AAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!! But he is not.. AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!! i will prar that the person will be fine.. and he can come back soon..

THere... here got extra ppl typing...Hi, this is Shyda. And I'm bored. Waidah is currently stressed up, as she's having science module everyday! If you were in our place, you will be feeling how we feel too. Ok done!

Kan pelik dunia nie... Dgn senang kite boleh percaye kan seseorg itu... Dan dgn sekelip mate jugak, dgn senangnye seseorg itu boleh memperdayakan kite..

Kenape aganknye.. org2 ni suke tipu.. or in another words.. pijak kepale kite bile kite da baik dgn org tu... ye la.. org lame selalu kate.. buat baik berpade - pade, buat jahat jgn sekali... So, ni ke balasan kite bile kite tak uat jahat ?? pelik kan..

Kenape agaknye org2 ni dapat bile they pijak kepale kite tu?? kepuasan?? atau.. saje je nk tgk org mcm kite derite?? Sialan la kadang2 org2 nie kan...

Yang lain sial ye la bile org2, yg kite anggap kawan, buat sial belakang kite.. In aother words.. is like when a person u trusted, stab u in the back.. years of friendship cld jus gone...Pelik2 org2 nie kan.. They uat hati kite nie.. mcm mainan.. tak suke je.. atau boring je.. main la... try tgk org tu sabar ke die perang...

Ape yg they dapat bile they uat gini??? ape???