<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

This yr..
i guess it would be the same..
It be plain simple..
i dun mind..
I dun need anything basically...
just see everyone truly happy for once...
I got everything i need..
A hp to sms or call, mp3 to listen to...
To my sis and family..pls..
i dun want anything anymore ok...
No i need a hp ok...
haha... Jgn la akak sal bazir duit tu..
haha...

Ahhh.. i jus hope...
Everything would be fine,
Jus hope..
all will be happy...

Hope so...

last u ppl knoe..
i was happy..
Then now..
All have fallen apart..

Weird..
How Happiness ends in sadness..
I cried alot...
Alot.. and alot..

Feeling lost than ever..
Ha.. guess i will forever be lost..
Sad rite...

Damn i hate myself...
hate being me.. hate it...

SOme1 pls help me...
i am lost..

So hey ppl...
How is the new year for u ppl??
This week...
Hmm...
cried alot...

On Sat...
meet yanty, my bestie...
Well we talk abt our stress n all..
She always there for me thanks...
Meet Him too...
He was trying so hard to help...
Thank u for being there for me too...

Sun..
Well updating my blog..
Edit pics..
Ouh and my another best cousin,
Which i am close with...
Fid ( in short ) is coming over!!
Haha.. its been a long time since i meet her...
damn..
missing her too..
So yeah... got to go...
HaHa...
see u ppl ard...!!

Well,
Its been weeks since i last blog..
Sorrie to all..
i was jus bz..
skool started..
And got another special person entered my life..
Well..
Its been sweet, nice..
I cried few times... here and there..
Basically i cried alone..
Well.. i hope he is here now..
Guess he too busy..Busy with everything else...
But me...
Well.. i have to understand rite..
so everytime he call late..
all i cld say.. " its ok"
" its ok.. I paham... "
RIte now... i jus miss him..
Feel like crying..
Wish he wasn't tat bz..
Wish he is here...

There goes my saturdae...
GOne... spending with jus me..
ANd... ME...
ANd just my laptop...
Damn it feels lonely again..

-=- DeviLaid -=-

Today,
someone tell wrote to me this :

Well I'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over,
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over.

You can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out...


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Well, i guess..
if u look it in this way,
No one understand what the writer wants..
But hey..
i know what he wants..
Well.. answer given to him...
Haha.. some how..
i still cant believe..
i answer him..
what i answer...
But part of me..
Somehow...
glad i did...
What i did...
Some how i am glad..

KEPALE KU SAKIT !!!!

Lately,
There was alot in mind..
I may seen Happy, and cheerful outside...
But Inside...
Can Anyone See???

No...
U knoe why..
Coz no one really care...
There is a few...
But the friends tat Cares...
Out there some where...
BZ...

I guess,
This is life huh...
Busy.. everyone have their own life...
ANd this is mine...
DEspite the sorrow inside...
I smile...
I laugh..
Hiding all the pain and worries...

WHen will this end??
WHen can i jus break down...
Break down to show how it felt like inside....
The feeling of wanting to just shout out...
The feeling of wanting to break down and cry.....

Yet i can't...
Can't...

Just.... Can't.......

Hey ppl!!!!

Okie la, have to admit,
its been a long time since the last blog entry i put in..
OKie, This pics above.. hAHA..
IS actually glow sticks..
was at the beach on the 15..
tat nite i played with glow sticks..
cute huh...haha...
I went to the beach with my sis,
East coast park...
Haha.. n felt aft riding bicycle too.. haha...
It was with my sis future husband family..
they invited me since i knoe them alreay.. haha
But it was fun...
See how happy everyone is...
ANd my sis..
In her eyes, i see that she really is happy...
I am happy for her..
Happy tat she found the love of her life...
** i will put in more pics aiight?? ***

==-- DeviLaid --==

Well,
Its late..
Dated 3 dec 07 today..
1.43 am..
And yet.. i am still here..
Can't sleep jus yet..
A lot been happening lately..

Like losing an old classmate..
Died cause he had an accident..
he was still surviving in the hosp..
then the next thing i knew..
an sms came up..
he died...
Damn... i shld have gone and visited him..
Stupid rite..
" Ryan.. my dear friend.... We, those of ur friends.. ur classmates...
We will always miss u... we all love u aiite... May u rest in peace... "
On the day of his funeral i didnt get to go..
But on that day..
Gotten to know that my uncle sister in law...
ANother words... my aunty also have been buried...
SAd isn't it.. my family only gotten to know when she is already been burried...
This is the at of others...
Who dun appreciated my family.. and yet do tis to us...
U ppl could have been more nice and jus called us!!
but no...
stuborn shit.....
how could u ppl do this....
TO her.... she died.. and u never tell us...
IT was sad...
SHe was very nice...
very........
she cook well too..
she had cook for my 1st sis wedding too...
Was very nice of her rite...
very nice....
" i pray for the best... God loves u alot..."

In jus a week..
I lost two ppl in my life...
This is the truth of live isn't it...
The sad truth of life...
When u lose someone...
U jus have to face it...
Face it with strength..
Its difficult... but u must go on...
It the fact of life...
Ppl u love jus come and goes....
Its ok...
HE jus love them more...
Be strong everyone....
For this is jus....
THE TRUTH OF LIFE......

-=- Devilaid -=-

HAha..
Today.. i deleted MIRC from my lappy...
Its been stressful everywhere i go..
Wonder why seh...
Well i guess its time i quit all the chatting...
Time to go from a local chatter here an there..
to a normal.. sch gal...
Time to jus chill...

Anywae...
My lasted art work nearly completed...
i jus need to buy charcoal and touch up...
FInal touches will be made.. in another 2 weeks i guess...
ME taking my own sweet time to do tis art work...
a picture will be taken only wen it have been finish...
Art lovers.. do keep in touch wit me if u wanna see...
thanks u...

_=_ DeviLaid _=_
+- Living In Simplicity -+

Today,
i never go sch..
Not that i do not want to..
but i was sick..
Had flu from yesterday..
tot it would be gone by this mornin..
But no....
my head felt damn heavy..
And u know wat..
the pain was UNBEARABLE!!!!!!!!!

Slept nearly the whole day..
Anywae.. wake up..
bathe..
Force myself to eat..
then medicine..
Can't slep so here i am...

took Photos of me and lil bro..
just to cheer up abit..
even tho my head still hurts..


-=- DeviLaid -=-

U ppl wanna know wat !??
I think i am addicted to Hot choco and marshmellow..
eating marshmellow, and at the same time drink a sip of hot choco..
Ahhh heaven seh...
Feel the softness of the marshmellow mixing together with hot choco..
THe melting sensation...
THe heavenly taste...
Hmm....
Damn nice....

Sejak kebelakangan ini,
Waidah asik takle tido..
Entah kenape..
Da dua - tiga hari ni,
Waidah tido dalam 3 jam jek...
Penat rase nye..
Da tu,
Tambah dgn sakit kepale..
Nyut-nyut aje mlm2..
Dari stress sikit,
Boleh stress banyak..
Mcm nk aje hentak kepale kat tembok...
Haiz,
Nasib2...

--== DeviLaid ==--

To those that care,
i think,
there's one or two...

U people wonders,
what's wrong wit me?
Well,
To tell u ppl the truth,
I have no idea.....

Sorrie if...
i haven't been myself lately,
Sorrie if i made u guys worry..

Currently,
tell u the fact..
i feel...
Empty...
Lonely...
LOst...

THat's what's wrong,
i think..
i dun know why..
i really dun..

TO people who dun know me...
TO u guys,
my blog may be emo,
or what shit u ppl call me..
i dun care if u guys talk behind my back..
COz i know who i am...
I know where i stand...
LOw as i can stand..
is where i am..
But i dun care...
WHat ever u think..
Beyond this careless attitude.....
i suffer....
Beyond what u guys would ever feel..
Yet i Do not care.....

All i know..
is that rite now..
at tis moment..
All i feel..
Is emptiness...
Loneliness..
N lost...


----==== Devilaid ====----

Thousands Shining Stars in the sky..
Slowly disappear...
Leaving me searching..
in Darkness..

Hence, the Moonlight..
Now slowly darkening away...
Leaving Me Lost..
Without anywhere to go..

U use to Be light..
the Pull..
Leading Me out Of This Darkness...
But...
WHere are u NOw??

U use to be there..
When i am lost...
U Use to be my map..
Guiding me to where i should go...
But
NOw?? WHere are u??

So now......
Where am i??


--=- DeviLaid -=--

This two picS are edited by :
--== DeviLaid ==--

Lately,
Its been too lonely..
Too silent..
At times,
Neither a Ring,
Nor a Beep tone heard..
My hand phone seems dead..

i Kept my distant,
From these people..
it seems so scary..
Yet,
When asked Why..
Its so hard to explain..

In Silence,
Sorrows slowly engrave themselves
Giving More pain that ever..
Yet i remain silent..
Thou' i myself doubt i know why..
Why do i Wanna kill myself slowly this way?
why??
Why???