<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

I was blogging when my lappy total shut down suddenly... i forgettn that i took out the batt... damn it sei.. i was like nearly finish la... haha... it was long... dun know wat i wrote...But it was abt my PP presentation... to those who do not know wat it is.. its Professional Profiling presentation... Its my yr2  project...

So yeah.. finally its over.. Well, hell i was nervous... but mum says some stuff to make me feel better... say a lil prayer b4 i go in and all...so yeah.. it helps...

Was shaking when i was puting my poster up... i was early and the assestors was ready.. so yeah i started b4 5.. which was my actual timing... but its ok.. haha....

SO after everything.. i was so glad its over...I gave out a huge relieve when i i finally out of the hall.. haha....It was fine tho... not as bad... Comments given were fine too.. i didnt do tat bad.. it was fine...Just hope i pass.. haha...

hehe..... u guys shld see me shaking while i put the poster up... like i did a huge mistake and going to be kill for it.. haha.... haha... my voice were shking too.. haha.. hell... damn nervous.. never had tat kind b4... haha....Glad it is over....

Well, i know life is very complicated.. things like fights and such in the family are normal.. but at times it just feels like things could just get outta hand anytime...

N i know i shld nt blog abt this kinda thingy since blogs are exposed to like the whole world... but u ppl have to try to see it in my point of view... 1) i don't share these kinda things much...even wit some of my closes friends.. sometimes.. i don even tell them a thing.. ask them if u wanna know... 2) ppl have limits... so wen it u bottle things up, to a certain limit, it cant fit into the bottle no more... force it in? u jus gonna break the bottle... 3) Its the only way i cld just release my tension....

So sunday nite, came back from werk, mum was in the kitchen... angry... seriously....she was cleaning and were in anger... can see she jus came back from somewhere... i think she meet the caterer for my 2nd sis wedding... so maybe she tired and all.. then i got to know the reason... when she came back, the house was in a mess. i usually came back home sat n sun then clean the kitchen, mum usually werking tat point of time.. so i guess she see the mess and gotten angry.. further more  my 1st sis is at the front chillin watching tv... mum was like furious coz she didnt even take out the trash... So this is the prob wit 1st sis, she dun clean much. To put it bluntly, she dun do house work. So, mum gets angry every now n then.

Then 2nd sis getting married ard early june or something like that...last few days mum was angry coz she didnt tall her how many of her friends she inviting.. then sometimes mum fuss abt her dissappearing everytime she on off... where to... to see her guy la.. soon to be husband.. its like she dun spend time with her own family no more... sometimes it feels like she "besarkan family tunangnye"... This i got no comments...

Then last few days ago.. mum gotten angry cozz these sisters of mine, if anything never tell her straight, but always pass the msg to me then ask me to tell mum... she hates tis... she the type who, if there is anything, tell her urself straight... dun pass the msg, ask someone to tell her for u.. she hates it...

Then there is step dad. Who 1) do not work 2) do not do a thing at home 3) only eat n sleep n go coffee shop 4) Claims to be sick but never take care or eat medication.. 5) ask mum for money sometimes.. 6) thinks highly of his other daughters n sons... 7) never care to come visiting my mum side of the family even during eid... 8) there are many more.. but its ok....

Well....AHh... i am tired... lets just stop here for now...

If a girl cries in front of you,

It means that she couldn't take it anymore...

If you take her hand,

she would stay with you for the rest of your life;

if you let her go,

she couldn't go back to being herself anymore...

A girl wont cry easily,

Except in front of the person who she love the most,

she becomes weak..

A girl wont cry easily,

only when sheloves you the most,

she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you please hold her hands firmly,

she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,

if a girl cries bcoz of you,

please dont give her up,

maybe bcoz of your decision,

you ruin her life.

When she cry rite in front of you,

when she cry bcoz of you,

Look intoher eyes,

Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,

Infront of you, And bcoz of you?

She cry not because she is weak,

She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or pity,

She cry,

Because crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt,

nagony have become too big a burden to be kept inside...

Guys,

Think about it...

If a girl cry her heart out 2 you,

And all because of you,

Its time to look back on wat u have done,

Only you will know the answer to it.

You might have indirectly the cause of her changing in person!

Do consider it.

Coz one day....

It may be too late for regrets,

It may be too late to say "im sorry".

To my friends...

Ponder this message seriously.

Dont do this to a girl,

You may regret for the rest of your life.

Maybe in your life,

she's theonly one that love YOU the most.

And you ended up HURTING her the most!

 

I read this at one of the tagged post today.... tot i gave it a tot a lil bit. Basically, as a girl, i guess i cried for someone before... well one or two persons, i guess..Can't blame me...I'm still a gal. Tho some ppl say i look tough.. as in slacker, or those that cares nothing kind of ppl...i'm still a gal which have feelings... i'm still straight k.. haha... Seriously, aft sometime i think back abt it, then i wonder why i even care to like cry for someone. At the point of time we care, we get hurt then we cry but in the end, these kind of guys, doesn't even care. Aft some time i guess its pathetically useless to do so... But then from time to time, we never fail to cry for someone again.... Wonder why...Dun have anyone to cry for anymore.. haha... Random...

Well, raye lagi la kite kan... haiz... This yr raye is simple... tho aku puase sebula tkde lepas... tak la dlm raye mood nah pun... and on top of it all, wed raye, thurs sch, fri da start sakit, sat tak le bgn terus, sun gets worse but still kene go werk, mon kene go doc (damn i hate going to see doc!! ).... i gotten 2 days mc, doc say i need rest, and i cant talk much so she give me two days mc, saying u cant talk anywae so u rest at home. Its coz of my throat la kan... it jus get worse... And coughing like one mad dog makes it all worse la kan... Haiz... thos rp doesn't really use these mc's...i guess i stay home on tues too... i cant talk anywae... my throat really bad la... u guys shld hear my voice now... totally off la... then it dissappear!! hahahakkzz.... damn... pain sak!!!!!

Then this morning waking up with the pain in my head and throat with a running nose (i become like the red nose raindeer... haha )... a big.. as ina size of my palm, butterfly, very pretty tho... flew into my house... so the lawa la!!! haha.... then in landed on the tv... resting there..... and ard there.. till like an hour after that than it flew away... so the shocking... haha... seldom see butterfly near flats anymore... so so the few... haha... not few.. there isn't any.... hahakkzz... (trying to cheer myself up by laughing like this.. reality check : not laughing... but feeling tribble still... my throat hurts damn badly la.... )

I don really knw wat to state next... i think i going to sleep again... the midication makes me sleepy tho... haizz..... k la.. bye ppl!!!

 

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