<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

Its just one of those blog that i wanted to like out with some question that at times pops out in my mind. SO for today… the question is… WHY DO HUMANS HAVE FEELINGS???

Why do i suddenly ask this question? Well, its all cause by my own feelings. I had too many feelings mixed up like rojak lately. I felt hurt, sad, pain, irritated, angry, felt like crying… all… and then it pops out… why must i have these feelings? From there i asked.. WHY DO HUMANS HAVE FEELINGS??? Why must we feel hurt n pain, why must we feel like shit at times….

Well, with it, we know if something makes us sad or happy. With it, life seems much better… if we do not feel… its like so dull… life would become meaningless. But wit it too, we get hurt and all. But its life… Hmm….

SO in the end, i jus have to live with all these feelings.. u, me  and everyone… hmmm…. so the tired… but we have too.. these are some of the unanswerable questions… cant be help i guess….

Today, i have turned 20 yrs old…..In this blog entry, i would like to thank those that have wish me happie bde and all…

So, 1st up… Thanks to mom, who have brought me up in this world. Thanks to my sisters for wishing me happie bdae. I love u too. Thanks to abg sidi n akak ayu for the sling bag.. love the red color…. THanks for akak sal, for wishin me happier bdae… i dun need presents ouhkie.. so its ok. Thanks to abg aah, kak jana, n kak rai…. for wishing me happie bdae… ( i do not know who told kak jana and kak rai… it must be abg aah, their bro… haha)

Next up…Thanks to, my besties. Yanty, thanks for the bdae wish, u cant be with me on my bdae, but its ok….Ros, Mar, Najib, Ahmad, THanks for the dinner at pastamania, ( We had to go Sunplaza for some issues on our project. Then ahmad say he want to go toilet nad bring najib along saying he do not know where is it. Then, aft me, mar, ros settle our stuff at the eye shop, i ask where we are going, ros say we going to eat at mac. Then she enter pastamania, shitlets… she jus smile. Then i saw ahmad n najib seating already smiling, so i smile only.. hehe speechless. Then mar n ros wanted to go toilet so ok la.. i waited, while ahmad n najib buy the food. Then, the guys came back with only two drinks. tot my coke will come later so ok la… so the gals came back, suddenly sing happy bdae song, wanted to cry but kept it in.. haha.. then a slice of cake from starbucks for me.. haha…. Then my coke, which had been change to mocha frappe with whipped cream. their doings too!! haha… Aside from that, i gotten a purple, yellow cow/cowiebank…haha.) So thanks to ros n zep for the cowiebank… will try n keep money in it.. love it lots…. Again… thanks guys. And also, thanks to eugene for being sweet and knwoing my bdae, Al irfian for wanting to bring me out but last min cant… its ok i understands.

Then…. May thanks to the rest also who didnt forget my bdae, some in which i didnt know u know… Haha…. Rid, thanks for the advance bdae wish, Oska thanks for remembering. To Nuraini thanks…Not forgetting, Falah, adilah, fatimah, eric, shameer, weileng, voodoo child, Im R, shini, Atie, Cheong, Ouh and mabel, who i have bump in sch.. thanks for remembering.

LAstly……Thanks to all that had remember my bdae, that had wish me happie bdae and alll.. thank u. If i do forget anyone.. i am sorriee… but i think i have mention alll… i not so sure.. haha….cant seem to remember who i have mention, who i have not and allll sorrie… but thanks to everyone ok… luv ya all….

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Eve of my b’dae… Well, i have been thinking about things that had happen, done, wat’s going to happen and such… Then i thought again… What had happen, is it all in a way worth it? It is for the best? Or should i regret?? Then again i thought, in 20 years of my life… what had i done? other than the bad stuff and all….Have i wasted my life?? Part of me said that i had. And that i could have been a better person then i was or am now. But If the past have not happen, have not teaches me a lesson about life, would i still be what i am now? Then again i thought, what have i done?? Am i a bad person to u? I hated myself many times… And at times.. i still do hate myself..

I just feel this way sometimes… Dun ask me why pls.. dun…. i jus do…Today i hint2 the guys, as in my team mates, 3 of which my closest friends thus far in rp…. that my bdae is tomorrow… i jus feel like doing that. But i do not want anything… nothing at all…. Its was jus a play2 thingy…. I jus need to Coz part of me feel like crying again, from time to time… Its either the age, or i jus feel damn stressed out. But then again i do not knoe…. I jus need to cheer myself up guys.. so pls do not bother abt it.. i jus playing ard. I do not want to cry on my b’dae or the eve of it…. I am jus happy that u guys are around to make me happy and such….

Please… be happy people… i know some of u guys are having bf n gf problems and all other problems.. please… be happy.. things will turn out fine.. there is always ways….. and things will fall out fine ouhkie…. love u guys…..And to yanty… i miss u lots gal….