<~~~ Devilaid's Inner Side ~~~>

HE have teach me something today...That to just accept and go on. Thanks to mum also. I am sick for few days. My thurs and fri is being spent with bed n medication. Then a call came in saying the results are out. Since i am sick, i think i going to check it later at nite. SO...
Nite came, i became super afraid. Cause i don't know how to face mum if i got a bad result for my 1st final yr project. I checked, i was shocked, i tot i was ok, then i was angry at myself, then i broke down crying. 1st time in my rp life that i broke down crying just becoz of my grade.
All that effort, all that hard work, all that coming home late from sch, all that much i put in. I gotten a C+.... As compared to s, it make me feel much worse. Where the FUCKING HELL i went wrong?? i didnt even reach a B.... Damn it make me feel alot worse.
Since mum wen work already, i decided to call her. She knows my result were out. So called her, and told her i gotten C+ aje. She was like shock, i know she is. Then i broke down crying again. She say da la, jgn nangis, then i told her how i feel... she try so much to comfort me. Then put down the fone...
Remy tried to calm me down, thanks. Then i sit staring at the laptop.. crying silently. Damn, maybe it coz i am sick so i cry alot. Then mum called my hp, asking me if i am ok. i wanted to cry when she ask, but i stop it and jus hold it on. She said, da la its ok. Just go on finish this yr, then go get a job. HE realise ur effort. But if it turn out to be a C+ then jus accept it. Be greatful of what HE have given u ok. da la.. stop crying and get some rest ok....
So, even though i am super sadden, further more sick, i am accepting it all. N thanks to HIM i at least past, And thanks to HIM i got a mum like my mummy... so, i will be ok, i hope. thou i know i am prone to cry anytime soon.. but i am ok...

sadden, devilaid